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the first pain to linger (maxi)

by Black Tape For A Blue Girl

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    This maxi-cd was released in 1996 along with my (out-of-print) novel. It's a wallet cover, with the disc + a 4-panel insert. I found 25 of these in the storage space, packaged them up. No shrinkwrap. These are "new old stock" so there might be a few scuffs on the jackets, but they look pretty good to me (aside from some odd misprinting that happened back in the day). My apologies for the expensive non-USA shipping rates, this is really my cost!

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forbidden 06:08
a good omen 04:55
seven 05:48


The first pain to linger was released in early 1996. The material was recorded between 1991 – 1993, covering the period of the albums a chaos of desire and this lush garden within.

1 forbidden
for me, this piece perfectly captures the betrayal and anguish of this lush garden within’s cover. cast down. cast down upon broken shells of crystal dreams. defiled and destroyed. it was going to be the first song on the album, but then i replaced it with a different track. oscar provides some chant-y vocals. previously unreleased.

2 the glass is shattered
based around the backing tracks for this lush garden within “the broken glass”, this version focuses on the feminine perspective. recorded for the 1993 TEQ Music-label compilation ghafran. vocals by lucian.

3 pandora’s dream
years after the appearance of “pandora’s box” on a chaos of desire, this was recorded for the 1992 Hyperium Records compilation From Hypnotic…. when compiling the first pain to linger, i asked lucian to replace my vocals, which i had always been uncomfortable with.

4 overwhelmed, beneath me
this version, recorded for the 1993 Hyperium Records compilation Heavenly Voices Part 2, differs from the original in that i wrote lyrics for lucian to sing, while the original has wordless ethereal vocals. ryan lum plays additional guitar on this song.

5 i no longer remember the feelings
recorded for a performance piece by susan and peter strømsted from early ‘92, this begins with an early version of
“we exist entwined” and ends over a backdrop of “the flow of our spirit.” later released on the 1993 Simbiose Records compilation Borderline, A Collection Of Soundscapes.

6 a good omen
for the 1993 Hic Sunt Leones Records compilation The Promises Of Silence, i created these textures around a sample of lucian’s vocals from “the flow of our spirit”; which is where the title of this disc and the quote on the cover of this lush garden within originates.

i recorded this piece during the gulf war (23 january ‘91), in a very somber mood. my keyboard later crashed and took the sequence to the ocean floor. so this was rescued from a lo-fi audio cassette dub. previously unreleased.


released April 5, 1996


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Black Tape For A Blue Girl Portland, Oregon

Black Tape For A Blue Girl creates darkwave, ethereal, neoclassical, ambient, goth albums. This page also includes my ambient/electronic music, as well as side-projects. Thanks for listening. Sam

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